AAaaaaaahhhh!!!

Today was my second day on the floor. We had one day last week of shadowing, and today we were supposed to take a patient.

I didn't sleep at all last night. I tried so hard to zen out, took some kava, benadryl, deep breathing, and my favorite tv shows, didn't help! I was so nervous going in to work today. But then I met my preceptor and she was so incredibly nice, most of my nerves went away. I still felt like a fucking useless idiot most of the day, but that was all on me, not on her.

We had a major GI bleed patient, another guy tachy into the 130s, another patient having an anaphylactic reaction, all at the same time. I still cannot figure out how she got everything done, she smiled the whole time, never seemed flustered. I was so impressed. I can't imagine that being me. But over all it was a good, long, day. Three more days this week and then the weekend, I already can't wait!